130:bud
125: new shorts& jeans
120: tongue ring
115:lip ring
110:tattoo
i need to be completely different when i get back home.
i want a tat that really means something, something that we will understand.
i think latin is beautiful, but im not sure whether i want writing.
any ideas, i love tribal.
anyones welcome to join in on my goals.
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al0120- October 15th, 21:10
today:
b:0
L:0
after school:popcorn(150) 9prawncrackers(150)
D:Vietnamese veg soup(250)=550
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- al0120
- October 15th, 8:03
Yesterday was 1 buttermenthol and some chewies.
today it's just the morning so nothing but water so far
down 1kg
do u ever dream of eating/binging on food and then wake up to the almost sickening feeling of releif?
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- al0120
- October 12th, 21:07
today I ate:
-1pair
-2pieces of letucethe end
also.. I'm planning on getting a tat I want something that actually means something I would like it to relate to this side of my life with out being obsurdly obvious, I want only us to understand.
anything come to mind, much appreciated.
x
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- August 21st, 14:05
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- al0120
- August 16th, 23:09
bad day.
being with my friends makes it soo much harder.
i kno il get nowhere in life alone tho
grr
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- al0120
- August 15th, 23:40
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- al0120
- August 3rd, 12:02
its not that i havent been on here for so long.
i just havent had the balls to post.
but bleh, its on.
good days-
i had my formal
i went to nz
i got asked to two brownlows
going to sydney soon
had a meeting for going on exchange
lost my verginity to some1 i had never met before, it was right tho
started going to the gym
got called gorgus by him
found my leather jacket
bad days-
falling behind at school
did terribly on my exams
therefor most likely not allowed on exchange
nearly got ditched for one of the brownlows for my best friend
put on loads of weight
havent talked to ohim sinse it happened
lost my bestfirend, for a bunch of rich snobs
sims3 doesnt work on my computer
my boss hates me
smoking too much
and i truely dont kno what else to say, little things are insignificant to you so i wont add them, but for me it just adds up i spose.
sinse it happend i havent eaten, i dont know why..
maybe i think that if i loose more weight he will start talking to me,
i dont kno whether its on purpose, i kno his the sexiest person invented(not including famouse ext)
so he obviously gets whoever he wants but i dunno he made me feel special.
boy are a major fuck up.
its been waw three days sinse ive eaten friday saturday sunday and monday now.last time i checked ive gone from 63kg to 59.9kg.
im just not in the mood at all.
plus im sick so im not being forced to eat.
hmm so thats it.
the end
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- June 16th, 16:49
I am a fat binging loser.
I'm going to be an obese dissapointment on my formal.
I'm not letting myself eat for the next three days.
I hat myself for this.
And for being me.
I hate having all this inside of me. It won't even come out.
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- June 15th, 23:46
Todays just been ok.
Teacher called home(mum) nothing scairy tho.. Just being smart apparently?
His a bit of a toss..
Eating noothn, 15cal soup is all
And went for a walk/run for about 20.. nice nice.
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- al0120
- June 13th, 14:30
My mum just told me she hates me.
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- June 13th, 0:41
its 12:44 am here and i only ate half a box of medium chips today..
honistly i didnt even want them my darling overprotective friend force fed me them at a trainstation
so it was impossible to yell at her:(
oh well hopefully it doesnt do much, ive had 2.5 L of water in the lat hour.. defently about to explode.
i should sleep..
but ceeeebs.
i have decided if im gonna eat or restrict tomoro(or day whatevs) ive kinda been following the abc but
adding more fasts unintentually.
9 days till the formal;)
i dont want to be depressed and look like a fat heffa, im shit scared of putting on,
but i shant, skinny minny it tis.
use it and loose it.
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- al0120
- June 8th, 16:48
my formals in 2 weeks..
fuck looking like a fat homo.
130c today 120c tomoro.
im gonna kill it
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- al0120
- May 18th, 22:00
go get bummed!!!!...
seriously all of my friends go AND GET BUMMED!!
day one of fast they're already stabbing me in the back.
way to have shit friends...
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- al0120
- May 15th, 23:01
i hate i hate i hate!
me
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- al0120
- May 14th, 20:10
OH MY GOD!!!
thismorning mum had a complete blast at me!!
this is the first time she has actually said to my face that she thinks i have a problem!
ahhhh
kill mee..
she told me i count calories and that im obviously trying to loose weight..
NO SHIT SHERLOCK
and now shes saying im trying to make myself sick for attension.. BELIEVE ME MOTHER ATTENSION IS THE LAST THING I WANT.
my friends give me enough shit at school.
way to make my life harder than it already is.
fuuuuuuuck me!
:(
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- May 12th, 1:40
its 1:33am.
im going for a run, i cant take staying still any longer.
the beach is usually quiet hopefully il be a lone.
mum wont be up till round five so il think about getting back aroud 4:15..
im not even gonna think about eating when i get back.
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- May 11th, 23:27
i was in the bus and litraly every single person was chomping down on something i hated it!
i seriously could not stand it anymore so ive just got off at the next stop that came along.
to be honist i have no idea where i am, but i hope i get lost.
its so much calmer out here.
al xxxx
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- May 10th, 2:23
ive decided not to sleep..
maybe if i dont sleep i wont have to wake up to the fact that im gonna be even fatter in the worning.
im terrified of those numbers.
:(
and im getting a dress fitting tomoro, i bet it wont even fit anymore.
god thats going to be embarassing.
im going to crymyself (not) to sleep.
this is shit.. its all completely made out of shit.
x al
